My addiction

She was my sin that I happily dwelled with. I sit and think about the past that went by. I burst in tears and cry. Forgetting her was my task. I mask all my self pity and empathy people show. I need no remorse as I grow cold. Yes I no longer possess a heart or emotions. I don't believe in love or its potions.  I find the notion of unfaithfulness easy for everyone around me. Yet I seek nothing yet find peace everyday. My hair turns grey, I have lessons to learn. Memories of her in my soul burn, as the demons within me eat me alive. I could not believe she is not mine. The crime and fault was all mine and it's fine. I shall bear these burdens of pain. I go insane from the thoughts of you every second that flies by. Along with letting you go my soul left as well. Her name is always stuck on my lips. Her breathe got heavy from the touch of my fingertips.  Her knees go weak as I hugged her close. I was stuck to her like the Holy Ghost. She was indeed my addiction and I found it hard to let go. She will always be a memory through the storm, rain, hail, and snow. I am broken but I love as I was created to always do. I now love the man in the mirror he seems to have forgotten about you.

Written and composed by

Timothy Justin Rudolph Rodricks