The broken man

The happiness of listening my favorite song, is always a moment that can't go wrong. I am but strong through the sorrows and pain. I am but a man broken in every way.  I require no sympathy, as I once dwelled in my grief. I survive the shark's called life like the great Barrier reef. I teased with death, and I pleasurable I find life. I contemplated my heart to be ripped with a double edged knife. I stifle as life tries so hard to have be be the vulture kill. I'm already a sociopath on a happy pill. I fight these demons all through the night with years of pain and sorrow I once did carry. They sit quiet in my till the sun goes down to make things scary. Yes I am insane, I'm not filled with pain any more with a mask. How can you already break some broken glass. My life is now filled with joy, I have reconciled myself and no longer that vengeful boy. I have toyed with the devil and waltzed with the angels above. My reflection in the mirror is the one I love.

Written and composed by
Timothy Justin Rudolph Rodricks 

A painful desire

The moments we spend together or apart cannot be replaced. The twinkle in your beautiful brown eyes and the smile on your face. These are the thoughts that venture through my head. As I lay back in silence and darkness in my bed. You led me from my own shell to place I never thought I would go. I speak volumes of your beauty, love, and elegance. I am but human with nothing but love now reminisce. I cannot believe how fast I fell, I connected with you very well. Time will tell if its true. I miss you, I am but pained yet, my love for you isn't dying all the same. There are two sides to a coin as my friends explained. One side of me filled with love and care, the other is a heartless human being which exists in there. But I cannot find the words to describe how much I love you each day, I cannot believe how painful it is to miss someone so much in everyway. I am a man with a past so cruel, I am not worthy of love I knew it. Things are always just a reminder of what I had done. Destiny and karma join hands sometimes just for fun. A starry night, a clear dark sky. A cold winter morning to add to the tears of joy I've cried. I am happy that you are there. These emotions I face cannot be replicated as at this world I stop and stare. One-day I will be pleased to know that we can grow old. One-day together my love for you as a tale to little children it shall be told.

Written and composed by
Timothy Justin Rudolph Rodricks 

Her hearts desire

A woman can make you feel special and free.  She can tolerate you as much as she can be. If only she could see herself through your eyes. If only she could handle the through the rough times. You laugh at her temper as she abuses you, her expressions so priceless and admired so true. She feels lonely and wants you to heal her pain. She looks up to you again and again. She isn't insane when she screams and shouts. Hug her and watch those beautiful brown eyes create her lip to pout.  She hugs you tight and knows you understand.  She know very well you made her the most important part of your plan. She went through torture and he'll of a lot of pain. She drowned herself in her tears screaming his name. You seem so afraid to leave her alone. You spend every moment with her till you grow old. You keep her warm when the nights get cold. To put her to sleep a story must be told. She isn't cold she isn't lonely.  she only wants this thought to come true. 'i belong to you'  her voice calms your nerves. Her skin one yours makes your head twirl.  To you she's the most beautiful girl. No other woman can match her smile. No other woman would you want to bear your burdens all the while. She lays down beside you like a pampered child. With love and care surrounding this passion and desire you have is profoundlng.  This type of love isn't easy to feel. A perfect relationship like this doesn't seem to be real.

Written & composed by
Timothy Justin Rudolph Rodricks 

Tears of the soul

I see your face when I close my eyes, the pain that comes knowing that I'm hurt for a while. You cannot shatter a broken heart. You cannot break a soul so distant with worries to cart. Your care is precious, yet I'm a stubborn mule.  The tears I cried were from me being ignored by you. My heart skips a beat when my soul speaks your name.  Your beauty and depth of your heart helps me forget the pain. I envy the person who holds your hand, I envy the person who with u has their life planned. Like a fish to water I breathe under rapids. Stealing your heart leaves my love for you burned like acid. A moment to treasure and a feeling surreal. Knowing you are in my life makes things as special as can be. I watch the sunrise everymorning wishing I could die. Then I'd realize it's not very easy to tell you goodbye. I pry open the closet of skeletons and bury my past. I mask my smile so fast. I cannot fathom a day without you near. The sound of your voice lingers in my ears. My soul is refreshed knowing I can smile, you have the power to trigger my emotions all the while. Like a child you guide a blind man on his path.  You're not my ending you're my start. My beginning to make my soul at ease. Holding you close yes I will be pleased. I am but human I make mistakes. I feel vulnerable when I can't have your hand to take. I'm not perfect no body is, but I still love you and always will. See I look forward to seeing you happy be it with anyone who owns your heart. Coz with me happiness doesn't last and take you very far. You always have the power to right my wrongs. I thank you for always thinking about me, even though my fear leaves me blinded to see. Without you I'm still no body. You may not love me the way I do, you may not know what it's like to have a woman like you. All I know is that you reside in my heart and have the keys to my gate. All I know is that yes you are my soulmate.

Written & composed by
Timothy Justin Rudolph Rodricks