I see the misery and feel the pain. Her presence missed which drives me insane. I gained her heart to lose it as it came near. The tears I cried were countless as the years go by with fear. The rain can't douse my sins and render me dry. I lose myself as the lightening flashes in the sky. The thunder brings about less of a calm, without you I am but harmed. 7 years of love and I let you walk. My ego did not give us a chance to talk. The clock keeps ticking and the seconds arrive. Your name on my lips lasts till the end of time. Your touch on me can still be felt. Infront of the altar I pray and knelt for your happiness and your wonderful life. I'm glad you now remain his wife. Gone are the days where I held u close. I walk the earth like a ghost, tossed from pillar and post. Searching for someone like you who I could love the most. The hosts of heaven and the demons of hell reside in me mentally and leave me crazy. My memories of you don't seem to get hazy. I tread on pathways I know not so well. My heart has the scars with stories to tell. Your secrets, your ambitions, your life, your past, I even know why you wear that smiling mask. Years go by and I still think of you. We stuck together like ultimate glue. The few times we hated was during our fight. We'd kiss and make up and talk through the night. You'd wake up everymorning watching me stare. I'd always have u scared, you coursed through my veins like blood through my stream. I nourished your hopes and your dreams. Your nightmares made you scream and have you get startled. My embrace eases your heart and clamed you down. I'd always make u laugh even when you had your angry frown. The smell of your hair, your ear on my chest for the sound of my heartbeat told u I was there. You needed me and I needed you, somehow I wondered what things would be like without you. Now your the woman who wishes he was me. I'm the broken one trying to find clarity. He isn't something that you did plan, sometimes I wish If i was still your man. Now I see your daughter a picture so clear as her mother can be. But I'm not the one she calls daddy.
Written and composed by
Timothy Justin Rudolph Rodricks
